Fear

Fear keeps us alive
Keeping us from potentially dangerous things

Fear makes us feel alive
Because we came so close to death

Fear hinders
Especially when of the unknown
Afraid to jump the rusty fence
Preferring to stay inside where it’s familiar and warm

Fear is justified by experiences past
A self-fulfilling prophecy
They repeat themselves
Despite we know that we can change the future
We believe history
And relive what has already gone


To take the first step, past the fear that blinds
Is the hardest and most painful of all challenges
That our time on earth here provides
Removing the protection
We build around our hearts
Letting go of society’s views
Letting our true selves shine through
What do their opinions matter anyway?
We had the courage to chase our dreams
And be the people God intended us to be

Pushing away- original poem

Photographs display
Pain hidden in smiles
Betrayed by hopeless eyes
Caught in the middle
Of a dark place
Don’t know where to go
Nowhere safe to call home

Pushing Away
Pulling away from everything
Withdrawing
From the word
The shadows invite
Falling silently in the cold night

The world, my prison
Walls and fences, grey
The lies still filter through
Showing flaws as truth
Believing
Withdrawing further
Falling deeper,
Despairing
How could you ever love me?

Pushing away
Pulling away from everything
Pushing away what I need
I realise my mistake

You found me
Broken, near death
You saved my life
Me from myself
You healed me,
And gave me new life
Just to hold me close again
Your long lost child

Another Charcoal drawing

tell me what you think :) i apologise for the quality i don't have a proper camera yet. im using the one thats on my phone and its not the greatest.

a few random charcoal drawings

I cant believe how long its been since I've posted last :S uni and life getting in my way :) thankfully i have found some time to draw and write, i might put up some of my poetry in the next couple of days but here's my pictures... thank God for the person who thought of putting cameras in phones ..


Jarred Leto portrait in charcoal


and the photo i attempted to copy

Photos from the back verandah

Ok I know some of you would think that these clouds could be rather threatening. they do look a bit like the start of a tornado which we do get in Australia, similar to the ones in America, to a point apart from the fact that ive heard of them forming and causing massive damage on a clear day.


These clouds only rained hard enough to make the gutter look like Niagara falls XD

.... not that it comes out real well

Guardian Angel 2

As i said in the edit in my last post i found out that you can digitally edit photos on photobucket so i went a little crazy with it, the background is one of the outcomes but there was also these



Great fun this... makes me really want to get photoshop or something similar for my computer... oh the possiblilities XD ... so right now this function makes photobucket one of my favorite sites

Guardian Angel

I don't know where this one came from, but i had this background i did a couple of months ago.
i sketched a face on in chalk then painted the outline in gesso. then i used a sponge to apply the next layer of paint.





i forgot to take a pic of when i sketched the angel on but i this is at the stage where she didn't have a face yet...



I didn't really like the way she looked at this stage so i changed her clothes and hair colour
the finished product

Edit: the second stage photo i digitally edited on photobucket and used it in a background of my own creation at pimp-my-profile.com