Connected and Alone

We are all connected in some way
through text, a phone call, instant messaging
Facebook is the king of them all
Yet are we really that connected?
Just because a website reminds us of important days
Events and parties
Birthdays
Letting us see who is attending
making it easier to avoid those
we would rather not interact with
And instead of learning how to cope
We learn a system of avoidance and shallowness
Taking everything at face value

Everything seems too perfect
It has got to be a trap
This just cannot be real
Where is the catch?
When is the clock going to strike midnight?
When will the "dream" end?

The things i do to avoid homework.... sort of

procrastination? or is it writers block on the subject that the assignment is on?.... both?

anything is possible

i have this assignment on the adoption processes and practices of social workers....

Government documents....





hard to read, dry and when you have looked up the big words that no one else in the english speaking world uses, still don't necessarily make a lot of sense


is it just me or do politicians like to use big words that no one knows, just to sound intelligent, or is it so we the general public dont really know what's going on?

Anyway back to deciphering what im reading

through the eyes of God

Frustration and anger
blinding and deafening to what's right
and constantly directing to what's wrong
constantly showing
flaws always existing
world full of hating each other
everything
my own reflection
telling me the mistakes God made
the lies so inviting
but through God's eyes i can finally see

the truth in the lies
judgement, suspiciously passing
fragile his creation we are destroying
each other
themselves
always fighting
always divided
never united
against each other and all that exists
against the one causing the distress
with each tear his heart breaking
the earth, shaking and quaking beneath our feet
to concerned with our own selfish needs
to notice the cause of our problems
suspicious of everything
blind to the evil that lurks in our streets
in our homes
in our hearts
It hurts him to see

Fear

Fear keeps us alive
Keeping us from potentially dangerous things

Fear makes us feel alive
Because we came so close to death

Fear hinders
Especially when of the unknown
Afraid to jump the rusty fence
Preferring to stay inside where it’s familiar and warm

Fear is justified by experiences past
A self-fulfilling prophecy
They repeat themselves
Despite we know that we can change the future
We believe history
And relive what has already gone


To take the first step, past the fear that blinds
Is the hardest and most painful of all challenges
That our time on earth here provides
Removing the protection
We build around our hearts
Letting go of society’s views
Letting our true selves shine through
What do their opinions matter anyway?
We had the courage to chase our dreams
And be the people God intended us to be

Pushing away- original poem

Photographs display
Pain hidden in smiles
Betrayed by hopeless eyes
Caught in the middle
Of a dark place
Don’t know where to go
Nowhere safe to call home

Pushing Away
Pulling away from everything
Withdrawing
From the word
The shadows invite
Falling silently in the cold night

The world, my prison
Walls and fences, grey
The lies still filter through
Showing flaws as truth
Believing
Withdrawing further
Falling deeper,
Despairing
How could you ever love me?

Pushing away
Pulling away from everything
Pushing away what I need
I realise my mistake

You found me
Broken, near death
You saved my life
Me from myself
You healed me,
And gave me new life
Just to hold me close again
Your long lost child

Another Charcoal drawing

tell me what you think :) i apologise for the quality i don't have a proper camera yet. im using the one thats on my phone and its not the greatest.

a few random charcoal drawings

I cant believe how long its been since I've posted last :S uni and life getting in my way :) thankfully i have found some time to draw and write, i might put up some of my poetry in the next couple of days but here's my pictures... thank God for the person who thought of putting cameras in phones ..


Jarred Leto portrait in charcoal


and the photo i attempted to copy